MRS. DALLOWAY
Horror! horror! she wanted to cry. (She had left her
people; they had warned her what would happen.)
Why hadn’t she stayed at home? she cried, twisting
the knob of the iron railing.
That girl, thought Mrs. Dempster (who saved crusts
for the squirrels and often ate her lunch in Regent's
Park), don’t know a thing yet; and really it seemed to
her better to be a little stout, a little slack, a little
moderate in one’s expectations. Percy drank. Well,
better to have a son, thought Mrs. Dempster. She had
had a hard time of it, and couldn’t help smiling at a girl
like that. You'll get married, for you're pretty enough,
thought Mrs. Dempster. Get married, she thought, and
then you’ll know. Oh, the cooks, and so on. Every man
has his ways. But whether I'd have chosen quite like
that if I could have known, thought Mrs. Dempster, and
could not help wishing to whisper a word to Maisie
Johnson; to feel on the creased pouch of her worn old
face the kiss of pity. For it’s been a hard life, thought
Mrs. Dempster. What hadn’t she given to it? Roses;
figure; her feet too. (She drew the knobbed lumps
beneath her skirt.)
Roses, she thought sardonically. All trash, m’dear.
For really, what with eating, drinking, and mating, the
bad days and good, life had been no mere matter of
roses, and what was more, let me tell you, Carrie
Dempster had no wish to change her lot with any
woman’s in Kentish Town! But, she implored, pity.
Pity, for the loss of roses. Pity she asked of Maisie
Johnson, standing by the hyacinth beds.
Ah, but that aeroplane! Hadn’t Mrs. Dempster
always longed to see foreign parts? Che had a nephew,
a missionary. It soared and shot. She always went on
the sea at Margate, not out o’ sight of land, but she had
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