MRS. DALLOWAY
“Mr. Dalloway, ma’am—"
Clarissa read on the telephone pad, “Lady Bruton
wishes to know if Mr. Dalloway will lunch with her
to-day.”
“Mr. Dalloway, ma’am, told me to tell you he would
be lunching out.”
“Dear!” said Clarissa, and Lucy shared as she meant
her to her disappointment (but not the pang); felt the
concord between them; took the hint; thought how the
gentrylove; gilded her own future with calm; and taking
Mrs. Dalloway’s parasol, handled it like a sacred
weapon which a goddess, having acquitted herself
honourably in the field of battle, sheds, and placed it in
the umbrella stand.
“Fear no more,” said Clarissa. Fear no more the
heat o’ the sun; for the shock of Lady Bruton asking
Richard to lunch without her made the moment in
which she had stood shiver, as a plant on the river-bed
feels the shock of a passing oar and shivers: so she
rocked: so she shivered.
Millicent Bruton, whose lunch parties were said to
be extraordinarily amusing, had not asked her. No
vulgar jealousy could separate her from Richard. But
she feared time itself, and read on Lady Bruton’s face,
as if it had been a dial cut in impassive stone, the
dwindling of life; how year by year her share was
sliced ; how little the margin that remained was capable
any longer of stretching, of absorbing, as in the youth-
ful years, the colours, salts, tones of existence, so that
she filled the room she entered, and felt often, as she
stood hesitating one moment on the threshold of her
drawing-room, an exquisite suspense, such as might
stay a diver before plunging while the sea darkens and
brightens beneath him, and the waves which threaten
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